sorry is just not the magic word.

love is really not my thing.

dun like to be a loyal guy.
cause loyal guy hurt the most.

dont let other people put a cigarette into your heart.
cause it burns bad.

to make thing worse,
they actually wont give a damn.

run, kelvin, run!

Run, EDC run!

run, run and run!
watched social network last night,
a story bout mark zuckerberg,
the founder of facebook, one of my inspiration.

i think its time to seriously learn my code writting stuff.
cause next July is near!

run, kelvin, run!

looking into my closet,
saw one nice christmas' hat.

i remember i bought it somewhere around pacific
time walk so fast,
it's been a year but it feels like couple months ago.

christmas is just around the corner..
time walk fast..really fast.

Lefty's Launching!

For some reasons, i had forgot the way to love a person.
seeing you reflects me who i am before.
when we love,
the oxygen supply is always not enough to pump up to our brains.
making us a bit dizzy and always intestacy.


one day you will flash back and realize that apart of getting hurt and disappointment,
we had grown up a lot.
i am a realistic person, a dreamer no more.
i dun put hopes as first priority,
but i put facts as the base of everything.

we just couldn't ignore the real big thing in the room.
this is real, and the feeling is real,
but feeling does not mean everything.
there are many other things that need to be considered.

India.

if you asked me 2 years ago,
where you wanna go?
i would say Japan.

cause they have the best tech, the best city,
and the best business opportunity.
Japan is the big thing.

however, things change now.
if you ask me where i wanna go,
i will answer you, India.

yesterday, i went to this small little place in penang,
the indian street, little india.

trust me, once u step in , i felt like u are in india.

i like the place a lot,
their culture, their songs, their dance,
they are just happy people.

you can see their colourful way of living.
i feel very comfortable even thought i'm 'white' in the city.
i just love the way they live.

they smile to me as i walk down the street.
i wnt to this kuil.
and i was so pleased to be in it.
i love the culture.. very much.

and i understand y a lot of westerners convert themselves into hindu.
cause they way they live is happiness.
they count GDP using happiness.
and i believe that's what life is all about.

i just finished the movie,
3 idiots from bollywood.
and trust me,
that's the best masterpiece i ever watched in my life,
100 times better than avatar, 50 times better than transformer.
30 times better than nicolas cage movie.

the movie thought us about the other way to see life,
and i felt its a movie which can bring lots of inspiration to many people.
so, here's the link for the movie. hope you people enjoy.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IP40tI0QpOk

i think one day i maybe in Hindu.
cause i felt tat it suits me.
the way i'm living, i dun feel i will be a rich man in monetary term,
but i feel i will more a person who explore life.

now i understand myself

now i know watz my problem.
after struggling due to the Research i'm doing.
finally i know watz my problem.

people do research to find out the reason why.
while the way i approach life is goal oriented.
i'm looking for 'how'.

normal people use independent variable to find dependent variable.
that's the why man.

i use dependent variable to find independent variable.
and i am a 'how' man.
and it's opposite.
so i think my life is kinda up site down too.

because of most of the time i am able to see an end result before things is being done,
i tend to approach my research paper using the same way.

for example, studying science and doing lab job is a different thing.
studying science, u know the end result,
you just have to think facts to support which can make the result happen.

lab job is different, its experimental,
u dont know the end result, and u have to do it without knowing wat you will get after tat.

i teach my kids science and most of the time, i know the result.
or maybe i can say i'm a more logical person.

this research is not bout social networking website,
its a research actually done to understand me.

and i do understand more bout me.
when u forsee things coming, you tend to prepare yourself and awit it happen.
i always see things coming, that's always my problem.

when a 'how' man does a hypothesis, it's always a positive one.
when a 'why' man does a hypothesis. it tend to be negative, maybe positive.

conclusion, research is not my things, i done with facts.